Musannaf Ibn Abi Shayba 33:377

Yahya ibn Abi Bukayr narrated to us, he said: Shu'bah narrated to us, he said: Yazid ibn Khumayr al-Shami informed us, he said: Sulayman ibn Marthad informed me, he said: I heard the daughter of Abu al-Darda' from Abu al-Darda', he said: If you knew what I know, you would laugh little and weep much, and you would go out weeping, not knowing whether you will be saved or not be saved.